In Summmerrrrr

We really did have an incredible summer. We were either at the Marlborough beach, the wading pool, a friends house or out and about. 

 

 

It was full of fun, friends and family and I felt so blessed. 

 

When summer was coming to an end I was struggling with so many emotions.  I was excited for them to go back to school.  That would mean I would not have to entertain them day in and day out 24/7. It would mean my house would be back in order and somewhat (in the very least a little more) organized.  Them going back to school also meant NO MORE FIGHTING!!!

 

However, this was the first year Kyle would be going to school full day and our town changed its policies which meant Hailey would be going to school full day as well.  Where most moms were beyond excited about the change I was devastated. No one asked if it was OK to take my baby from me sooner than I had planned.

 

Them going to school full day meant no more mid-day picnics. No more afternoon trips to the zoo. They are growing up and I have to let go, and it breaks my heart. It hurts my mommy heart that for 8 hours a day I will not be in their world.  I won't know how they are in school. Who they are in school.  What they are up to, doing or thinking.

 

This mommy thing is hard: confusion, anxiety, sadness, happiness, hope...all that....and they are just going back to school!  I am in no rush for the year to fly by as I do not want them to grow up even more BUT I am excited for next summer.

 

xoxoxoxoxox