Hailey's Arrival

The day of Hailey's birth was joyous, nerve wracking, happy, sad, scary, and amazing. Hard to believe you can have so many emotions in an instant.

The night before I could not sleep. I was anxious so around 2am, when I realized how slowly the night was dragging I ran out to the grocery store (Thank God for 24 hour stores) to get what I needed to bake cookies. I came home and baked away. I made chocolate chip cookies and M&M cookies for the nurses. I figured a batch for the labor and delivery nurses and a batch for the recovery nurses..after all they are the ones who really tend to your every need.

As morning approached I took one of the most amazing and cleansing showers a person could take and dressed comfortably. Jay was so excited..this pregnancy was finally going to be over. I experienced more of a bitter sweet moment. I was so happy to not be pregnant anymore, but a little sad. What if this is my last baby? Will I ever feel life inside me again? Did I savor the moments as much as I could: the first flutter, the first kick? What about Kyle this is it, my last few moments with just him! We took our last family photo as a 3 some and off to the hospital we went.



We arrived at the hospital at 8:45 am and were greeted by a wall of nurses. Every one of them kind and caring. I must mention they were so grateful for the cookies! The nurse assigned to me was amazing, and I can't believe I forget her name. We went into our room where I changed into the oh so comfortable gown and got into bed. Jay sat by my side trying to stay cool. They attached me to the heart monitor for the baby and we got to hear Hailey's last few heartbeats in the womb. The nurse asked how comfortable I was and I told her I was actually not very comfortable at all. There was so much pressure low and it was increasing in intensity from the 2 prior days. She said:" well that would be because you are in labor". I was thankful I was not crazy I thought I was. She left the room and I discussed with Jay just going ahead and trying to go through the labor naturally. He looked at me like I was CRAZY. Then, the nurse came back and said we will see if we can move your time up. No point in you going through all the pain of labor when you are going to have a c-section. Mind made up..c-section it would be.

Now my heart was pounding because I was set on the 11am hour for Hailey's birth it was only 9:20! She came back and said you are going in at 10am. We scrambled to call everyone. At 10:15 I walked into the O.R. It was a rather surreal experience. There I was sitting on the table and the nurse and the O.R tech were talking about diddlers! On the news you may have read about a man who was a sex offender and he wanted to attend Red Sox games because he had purchased season tickets..well he was her neighbor for years and they had no idea he was a sex offender and they had 2 kids. This was the conversation until the anesthesiologist finally showed up. For some reason I was scared about the spinal tap. It was a little rough but it worked!! Next thing I knew I was laying down and looking at Jay.

Jason was incredible. I had soo many emotions and hormones running through my veins. He just looked me in the eyes and kept telling me how proud he was of me, how much he loved me, how grateful he was for his family..he was incredible. Then the moment 10:41am I heard "Oh my God look at all that hair" and then Hailey's cry. I looked to my right and there she was this new life. The doctor came over and said she looked GREAT. We were now parents of two children. We have kidS! We made a gorgeous little girl =)

Mother's Day and a Milestone

Kyle got his first haircut! I can't believe how long I waited, I knew he looked a little scruffy, but I was not ready for the haircut. Until yesterday! We needed to kill a little time between Mommy Day events and we decided to have Kyle's hair cut. We went to "Snip Its" a "salon" for children. It was a really fun experience. Mom, Dad, Auntie Kate and Auntie Stacey were all there for the event. He was fearless. So well behaved. He sat in the seat and let the woman cut away.

Scruffy to handsome =) I can not recommend going to snip its enough. It is a very fun environment for children and parents. The best part: we got an official first haircut photo and certificate, with an envelope of his hair. A mom's treasure.

May 7th

Today is May 7,2009. A big day in our household. It is Jason's birthday. For whom without I would not have the incredible life I have, or my two children.



It also marks one week until Hailey's birthday. In fact a week from this moment she will be born. As happy and excited as I am I found myself in tears as I was feeding Kyle. I realized this is it, the last Thursday I will ever have with just my son; just my Kyle! I know I will celebrate Hailey's birth and our family is blessed to have this new little life joining us. I just can't help but wish Kyle remembered the time he and I shared together. Playing and laughing. Loving and learning. I know all that is not going to end; yet there is just something so sad about OUR time being shared with another.

I know I am blessed to have BOTH of my children. It is just emotional knowing how my life and time with Kyle is going to change. I am sure our world at first will be turned a little upside down with Hailey joining us; but that in the long run our world will just be enhanced.

I am not complaining or ungrateful. I think I am just so grateful for Kyle that I can not imagine sharing time with another life. My baby is going to be a BIG BROTHER! He just turned 1. The reality is just starting to hit me I guess. I have been in denial for so long, now that the time is truly approaching I am feeling a little overwhelmed.

I AM excited to meet my daughter and have her join our world. I look forward to more love, laughter and even chaos in our home. It is just hard to imagine it all. In the end we are blessed. All four of us!

I Love You

I have to share this with everyone. So I have sung the Barney song to Kyle for a while now. I know annoying....but now I will keep doing it. When I say "great big hug" He will either give me a BIG hug or wrap his arms around himself and squeeze. "and a kiss from me to you" He will run over or get up and give me a kiss. It is the most precious thing. I love it! Even if you aren't a big Barney fan, sing the song. There is nothing like having your baby understand and connect with you like that.

I love you, you love me. We're a little family. With a Great Big Hug and a Kiss from me to you. Won't you say you love me too.

Diapering Dilemma

My father gave us the GREATEST gift. His gift for our children (besides being an awesome Grandpa) was to pay for their diapers until they are potty trained. Once a month I order from diapers.com, my father input all of his credit card information and I have them delivered in 2 days right to my door. Rain or shine.

When Kyle first came home from the hospital I tried every diaper. Pampers and Huggies were my first 2 choices...I know their name brands best and my son deserved the best. But, he always smelled like pee.

So, I joined the "Luvs revolution". Besides not feeling as guilty because they cost less I thought, why not, technically they are free to me =). I loved Luvs! Kyle never had a leak or smelled like pee..............until now!

Now my baby boy is waking up around 2:30am nightly because he is soaked. I mean SOAKED! I need to help him. I have been reading all the diaper reviews and like anything else out there some people love each diaper and others hate them. He is not drinking more before bed, and he still gets a fresh diaper before he goes down anyway. I guess it is back to trial and error for the DeVincent family.

I still highly recommend the Luvs. I also recommend using a little diaper rash cream and a little cornstarch baby powder before bed as well...to PREVENT diaper rash. In a year Kyle has only had one diaper rash. If your baby does develop a diaper rash go out and get the CVS brand diaper rash cream. I can't explain why or how, and neither can Kyle's doctor who recommended the cream; but it works..his rash cleared in 1 day. I had been using the Desitin for several days with no significant healing to the rash.

Kyle has gone a year without any leaks or smelling like pee. So LUVS really can save you money and work, but like anything sometimes you just need a change. Ideally just not a wet leaky change in the middle of the night =)

Kyle's first accident

Kyle had his first accident today. He is fine, he was actually just more scared than anything else but I can not stop thinking about how stupid it all was and what a terrible mother I am.

Jay's father (Ron) was here to visit. He and Jay got to talking and decided to switch vehicles for tomorrow morning. Jay went out front to switch out everything from the two cars. We were all out there with Kyle and then Ron, Kyle and I came back in. Kyle had been running back and forth playing peek a boo and just as I thought...where is Kyle? I thought: oh sh!t..is the gate and door closed? As I was about to get up to check I heard my screaming baby! He ran out into the kitchen, pushed out the gate and darted out the front door down 3 steps to get to daddy. When you are a mom and you hear your child in pain you FLY. Even at 9 months pregnant I am not sure how I got outside. THANKFULLY it was just a small bump on his head and he really was more scared than scarred but it is not making this night any easier for me.

I feel like I have to keep 2 steps ahead of every ones next thought, move, feeling and mood lately. Don't say this :you don't want to offend anyone. Don't ask that: you do not want to be a burden. If I make this move will it make the next person upset? I finally slipped ONE TIME in a year, and my baby got hurt.

I am not positive why I am even sharing this, maybe just to rid some of the guilt from my heart. I fully admit I am not perfect...but this broke my heart and my spirit a bit as a Mom. Am I really that unreliable? Can I balance the 2 kids?

I am sure I am being ridiculous. Maybe a little hormonal. I KNOW he is OK. I gave him the up and down a dozen times. I studied sports medicine so I know everything to look for and he really is perfectly fine. Could someone share that with my heart please.

Bad mommy signing off......and hopefully being a better mom tomorrow