A year..*TEAR*

Its incredible how much time there is in a year. Its amazing all that changes in a year. Its strange to be able to recall the feeling, emotions and thoughts that I had a year ago tonight. A year ago this night I was nervously and anxiously awaiting Haileys arrival. I couldn't sleep and did all I could to try and get to sleep. I ended up food shopping at 2am and baking cookies until 5am for the nurses. I remember taking one of the longest and most cleansing showers of my life dreading how I was going to feel post c-section. I was sad that Kyle wouldn't be my only baby, I was still in shock that we were going to have another little person in our home. I wondered if there would be enough love; Hailey was NOT SUPPOSED to be with us yet.

There have been several times this year that she has done something, attempted something, thought something and the moment would take my breath away. I would stare at her with all the love and admiration in my heart and think "look at her, and she isn't even supposed to be here yet!"

Just the other day I watched her and Kyle laughing and playing together. They were cracking each other up. I turned to Jason and said "she was meant to be here now wasn't she" he responded with "OF COURSE she is". I wish I could better express the emotions in the moment but she took my breath away. They both did.

Now, here we are a year later and she is this incredible and beautiful little person. She is going to be 1 tomorrow and besides being GORGEOUS she is smart and funny. She loves learning. She copies her brothers every move. Hailey laughs and plays. She loves to eat which is a miracle considering she wouldn't eat when she was a newborn. Hailey is walking and talking up a storm. She can understand and comprehend way more than one would ever imagine a baby could. She is becoming more and more independent everyday. She won't even let me feed her anymore, she has to do it herself.



Tonight, after running around getting things we will need for her birthday bash we came home later than expected. I made my children a wonderful dinner (whole grain waffles and bananas per their request). Miss.Bug would not allow me to feed her; and realizing this was her last meal as an 11 month old (as opposed to an official 1 year old) and beginning to recall where I was a year ago in that moment I had to capture the moment. Look what transpires in a year!! From womb to Miss. Independent. *TEAR*

I have to include, as I was filming Hailey; Kyle snuck out. Yeah, he put on his own shoes on the correct feet, opened the baby gate, opened the front door, and snuck outside to help Daddy with the grass. So I had a beautiful mommy moment with Hailey, followed by my entire universe flipping on its side from seeing my front door open to once again being a proud Mommy of my always growing and learning 2 year old who looked at me with an enormous smile and overwhelming pride and said "Hi Mama".

What can I say? they are AMAZING =) I LOVE being a Mommy and I love that I appreciate every moment with them!