May 7th

Today is May 7,2009. A big day in our household. It is Jason's birthday. For whom without I would not have the incredible life I have, or my two children.



It also marks one week until Hailey's birthday. In fact a week from this moment she will be born. As happy and excited as I am I found myself in tears as I was feeding Kyle. I realized this is it, the last Thursday I will ever have with just my son; just my Kyle! I know I will celebrate Hailey's birth and our family is blessed to have this new little life joining us. I just can't help but wish Kyle remembered the time he and I shared together. Playing and laughing. Loving and learning. I know all that is not going to end; yet there is just something so sad about OUR time being shared with another.

I know I am blessed to have BOTH of my children. It is just emotional knowing how my life and time with Kyle is going to change. I am sure our world at first will be turned a little upside down with Hailey joining us; but that in the long run our world will just be enhanced.

I am not complaining or ungrateful. I think I am just so grateful for Kyle that I can not imagine sharing time with another life. My baby is going to be a BIG BROTHER! He just turned 1. The reality is just starting to hit me I guess. I have been in denial for so long, now that the time is truly approaching I am feeling a little overwhelmed.

I AM excited to meet my daughter and have her join our world. I look forward to more love, laughter and even chaos in our home. It is just hard to imagine it all. In the end we are blessed. All four of us!