A Birthday of Emotions!

Today was one of the most emotional days of my life. I don't know if I am ridiculous, normal, or maybe a little hormonal. Today was Kyle's 1st Birthday! He first woke up at 3am...and I looked at the clock and realized at 3am a year ago Kyle was not even here yet. I remembered at 3am, 1 year ago staring at the clock TRYING to sleep. I remember looking over at Jay, who was sleeping for the moment and thinking, whats going to happen? What did we do? He is going to be a daddy...and me a mommy! I had to bring Kyle into our bed, Daddy wanted him there too. I think we both sensed the moment was special, it was a year ago "we", became an "us". We became a family.

Each moment I looked at the clock I could remember what I was doing, thinking, and feeling, a year ago;7:12am back labor, 1:42pm epidural, 7:58pm the anesthesiologist telling me in less than 10 minutes I was going to be a mother, 8:06pm the doctor announcing Kyle's arrival and birth time. At 10pm I asked Jay if I had met Kyle yet, he said yes, about 30 minutes ago. It was just as special for him I think. Here it is 3am April 18th and I recall JUST getting into my hospital room.

It's so strange, on this day I feel so proud...our son is ONE! We did it! We made it through the first year! Yet, I am somewhat reserved in my accomplishment...where did the year go? It flew! My baby is growing and changing more and more. Learning language and skills. Which I KNOW is a good thing, but it's hard knowing my baby is GROWING UP. I want to keep him my baby boy.

There are days I honestly look at Kyle and think "when are his parents going to pick him up already?" I can not believe he is mine. Though the year has had its ups and downs it has certainly been one of the most amazing and educational years of my life. Because of Kyle I am a different person. I can't quite put my finger on why or how...I just know I feel different. This world that used to be about me and how I felt is now about my son, and his father. My world is about my family. My world is about love, and the strength and power love gives you.

So though the day is and has been very emotional for me, I think in the end all that matters is: I am happy. I have my husband and my son, and a little girl on the way. I have my FAMILY, we are happy, healthy, and strong. What more could a girl ask for out of life???

Jewelry...a girl can always ask for more jewelry, (JK)!


I took pictures of Kyle at every "well baby" visit. Though I could post a MILLION pictures of his first year, I thought these best demonstrated how he changed, just from doctor visit to doctor visit.